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So I went to my local bookstore to go buy it ,and I was looking fot it about half an hour before I found the last copy ,I was so happy I almost screamed ,but I didn't because there were a lot of people there .So I went to buy it and left the store with my mom and forgot my bag with two new T-shirts ,but I went back and asked the lady at the counter if she found a bag with two T-shirts in it and she just smiled and sayd that she did and handed the bag to me .Afterwards I got a lecture from my mom about losing things  .so yeah ,bye happy Easter to everyone !!!

So Holidays finaly started Yay!  
I was dying in school     and was kinda depressed because my friend and I had an argument(I kinda had a crush on him ) ,but im ok now  !
So my plans for the holidays are :
Baking cookies and cakes for my family and helping my mom.
Lerning History ,Math and Geography (because I almost failed them):bademoticon: .
Watching anime ,Tv shows and Movies .
Visiting my Grandparents .
And drawing some art ,because I decided to start drawing something because I was bored at seeing my profile so empty ...
If you could suggest something for me to draw that would be a big help!!

I wish all of you guys a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!! 
 

Why are people so cruel,why do they leave you when you are in pain and broken ,the glass that is your soul and heart broken beyond repair ?they say I need to trust people ,but I don"t want to get hurt again .People are just cruel greedy beasts that don"t know how to hold back when they hurt someone ,they wonder why I act like a misanthrope ,can"t they see human nature ? I ask myself .I've been betrayed by many people but I don"t want anyone to see that so I wear a mask to cover all my feelings but someone cracked that mask ,but now he dosen"t even care he left me broken and scared ,and he dosen"t even bat an eye .maybe I should just forget him and get a new life ,new friends and just forget ,but I can"t and I don"t know why .why can"t I forget .......

Why are people so cruel,why do they leave you when you are in pain and broken ,the glass that is your soul and heart broken beyond repair ?they say I need to trust people ,but I don"t want to get hurt again .People are just cruel greedy beasts that don"t know how to hold back when they hurt someone ,they wonder why I act like a misanthrope ,can"t they see human nature ? I ask myself .I've been betrayed by many people but I don"t want anyone to see that so I wear a mask to cover all my feelings but someone cracked that mask ,but now he dosen"t even care he left me broken and scared ,and he dosen"t even bat an eye .maybe I should just forget him and get a new life ,new friends and just forget ,but I can"t and I don"t know why .why can"t I forget .......

So my school started a few weaks ago and I decidet to join the school choir so I woulden"t be bored out of my mind ,and it"s allright ,exept my ex-friend is there too ,we were good friends until some girls from our class started saying we were in love because we used to play video games together in informatics class ,and at first he sayd to ignore them and they would stop but it only started to become worst and when the guys from our class found out they started to tease him too and we got into arguments and we stoped talking and he asked the teacher  if he can sit somewhere else in informatics class and he did ,we no longer spoke we just sayd hello and goodbye to eachother no more talks no more anything ,once this year when we were walking from class and no one was around he talked to me and I thought he finaly started to talk to me again .Sadly that was not the case ,the next day he didn"t even say hello or goodbye ...when we stoped being friends I grew my hair out ,and stoped trying to act like I was happy because I wasn"t he stoped talking to me the year my grandpa died and I was too depresed to care about my grades and I almost failed some classes but this year im gonna work hard and study .I don"t care anymore .before when I just came to my new school I had neck lenght brown hair and now when I grew it out It"s to my mid back and it's shinyer and looks healthy and a lot of people sayd that I shoul keep my hair long from now on because I look more like a girl now .I realy don"t care anymore what he thinks of me ,im gonna dress like I want ,grow my hair out ,train and study hard to make him realyse his little mistake ..Because thats what I'll always be to him his little mistake and he will be my little mistake too ,I just hope he will talk to me a little ,it was fun while it lasted but now it"s just a pain in the chest  ..he once walked to me after soem guys from our class teased him and sayd I was  a bad luck charm and that I was a mistake ,I looked cold from the ouside ,but inside I was screaming I just looked at him coldly and smiled bitterly ,saying "Im sorry you ever met me ,and that I coused so much trouble to you" and turned around .I hope this year will be different ....


Sorry for my little rant but I had to release some of my tension ,again Sorry..